Feeds:
Posts
Comments

Posts Tagged ‘oneword365’

oneword2012

I can’t believe we are halfway through this year! It seems like time has flown by.

I started out this year out of breath and crawling forward. I was scraping at the bottom of the barrel for joy and hope. I felt like for every step forward one of those huge hammers from Wipe Out would slam me nine steps back. Ouch.

I chose healing as my Oneword365.

Healing takes time.

Healing takes a process of really doing the hard work. I have been learning the truth that I have to choose the hard to get to the healing. Nothing changes if I don’t change up some patterns and habits.

I still don’t feel far enough into the process to say I have had these huge breakthroughs, but I guess that is the point of a midway mile marker. I am definitely not in the same low place I was in six months ago. I also have a little more hope and courage.

Healing is the process of renewing strength.

Fighting takes an insane amount of energy – both emotionally and physically. Fighters train for months to be able to last one match. I am gaining strength to fight through my fears and retrain the lies I’ve been living on. Strength has been a huge victory. Without it, I was running on empty and had no stand left to fight for myself. This just created a cycle of unhealthy living.

Slowly but surely I am rediscovering the puzzle pieces of my heart. He is making all things new in me. Although I still feel like the wind gets knocked of me, but instead of being thrown 9 steps back it’s only 5. Hoping six months from now those steps will continue to decrease.

The process of healing is the process of relearning.

When I broke my collar bone it took me so long to regain normal movement and rotation. Everything hurt and needed compensation. After a while I regained strength and relearned how to use my shoulder. Similarly, I am learning how to see myself, set healthy boundaries, and fight for my own voice and dreams. This process has opened up new words I want to speak, and new visions for my life.

Imagine that…

Hoping for more healing these next six months.

How is your halfway point going?

Advertisements

Read Full Post »

Pain just freaking hurts. There is no confusion there. There is no mistaking pain for something else. It hurts inside and out.

Pain invokes a physical and an emotional response. There is no hiding when something hurts. I know I wear pain all over my face. I wear my heart on my sleeve.

Not only do we respond to pain, but our bodies immediately begin to overcompensate for the injured area.

When your ankle or knee is hurt, the other leg and hip carry the weight. The body shifts into a mode of recovery when any bone is broken. That can also wear on you as well.

I remember when I broke my collar bone. My whole body hurt. All of my 2,000 parts overcompensated for months to pick up the slack for my injury. After months of adjusting, my shoulder healed but other parts of my body needed a break.

Healing takes time and adjustments. This is true for our emotions as well.

When our heart is broken, or emotions bruised, we begin to adjust to compensate for the pain. A broken heart takes as much time to heal as a broken bone does. However, when a broken bone heals, we need to relearn how to use those parts again. We cannot continue going through life just not using our legs or arms.

Emotions are similar.

The tricky thing about emotional pain is that we often stay in compensation mode. Once we make the adjustments to allow for healing, we often stay in those places – living off of those survival skills, and it becomes a way of life. This is not meant to be.

Emotions need healing, and once they do heal it is time to reintegrate them back into use. It is no small process. It often feels like things are getting worse before they seem to feel better. Don’t give up. It is in those heart sore times that you know healing is happening.

Healing hurts. It takes risk to choose the hard and patience to get better. Broken bones are sore when going through the process of being used again. Healing feels vulnerable and uncomfortable. There is nothing easy about it. It is worth it.

Don’t give up!

Are you afraid to heal?

In what ways are you healing these days?

(My oneword365)

Read Full Post »

Every New Year I feel very ready to kick the previous year to the curb. I am ready for all things new come January. New Year’s always gives me the hope of just that…NEW.

For the past two years, I have joined in the growing community of choosing a OneWord for the year. To be honest, each year my word has made me its _______. Still trying to live a life of FOLLOWING in 2011, and continuing to work on my jealousy through CELEBRATING others in 2012.

This year….this year I need new. This past year shattered me on so many levels. Sitting here at the table and looking at the proverbial puzzles pieces of my heart, I wonder where to start.

photo 1

Have you ever had those seasons in your life where you feel like more than the wind has been knocked out of you?

There is hard and then there is feeling defeated with no fight left. I am exhausted from pain, brokenness, discouragement, conflict, transitions, rejections, and deferred hope. I need a break.

Every war has times when the fighting ceases for sleep and rest. Every boxing match has rounds when each fighter gets a breather to regroup.I am that fighter in the corner needing a breather. I am that wounded soldier needing rest from the front lines of life.

E

SO my ONEWORD for 2013 is HEALING.

To be honest, slowing down and healing is not easy for me. Whenever I broke a bone or sprained an ankle I was bad at heeding to the instructions for healing. There is a reason doctors say it takes six weeks for broken bones to heal. I always that it was just a suggestion. I should have committed to waiting.

The patchwork and Band-Aide management of my life has become unstitched. It is time to let the Healer do His thing.

This year, I am focusing on the healing stories in the gospels. I want to learn about the what, who, why, and how of Jesus’ healing miracles. Hoping He heals me there.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

A bruised reed He will not break, and a smoldering wick He will not snuff out.”

These are some promises I am holding onto this year as I put back the pieces of my weary self. My hope for this year is that of a renewed hope, trust, peace, and forward motion through grief. 

What is YOUR OneWord of 2013?

Read Full Post »

I can’t believe it has already been a year since the start of OneWord2011! Last year I was so ready to kick 2010 to the curb. This year is not much different. I am ready for all things different.

I can honestly say that I am a different person from the start of last year.

It is time to turn the page – start a new chapter – introduce new characters – and wrestle with all things new.

I am sitting here in Starbucks staring at a blinking cursor mustering the courage to tackle a new hard word. Typing it means saying out loud.

Celebrate

Celebrate is my OneWord for 2012. You are either singing “celebrate good times, Come on!” or wondering why this word would require courage. For this I need to set the stage of my heart.

Jealousy is a small word that affects every part of me.

Jealousy is my biggest weakness.

Jealousy is my human hearts greatest challenge to conquer.

As kids, we discover the word “mine.” Our young eyes build on the foundation of wanderlust. We figure out early on that we want what other people have. There seems to be a shift in childlike contentment when the heart of comparison starts to form.

As kids, we wrestled with the struggle of equality. Our siblings had more milk, a bigger half, different bed times, or even better things.

It didn’t ever seem fair.

Somewhere along the line we developed the mentality that we were owed equality, if not better, than someone else.

Jealousy is more readily seen by the fruit of comparison. Jealousy is the hardest thing to see in the mirror.

Jealousy is that small piece of yeast that works its way through the entire dough.

Jealousy reveals the posture we have toward God.

Jealousy is rooted in the message that God owes me something. (I hate that my selfish heart struggles with saying that to God at all. He owes me nothing, yet has already given me everything.)

I struggle greatly with jealousy. The fruit of my jealousy is comparison.

I have entered a very new season of relocating, job searching, and just the unknown of everything. Sitting in a place of feeling far from myself and a bit lost is hard on the heart. This is a place jealousy feeds from.

This is where my word “celebrate” comes in.

Celebration is the active opposite of jealousy. I want to create a new pattern of celebrating the gifts, dreams, and favor of others first. I want to get to a place where my first response is joy and the genuine excitement of another’s good fortune.

Celebration is the discipline I desire to conquer in 2012!

Cups up to a new year of wrestling hard!

What is your OneWord365?

Read Full Post »