Posts Tagged ‘season of life’

Sometimes the phrase, “Hindsight is 20/20” just ticks me off. I have a love/hate relationship with it.

I appreciate looking back on a season of life and having “aha” moments, but I always wish that I would be able to see those things as they are happening.

We do learn from our mistakes as we look back on them. We gain wisdom from seeing clearly what God might have been up to as we reflect, but I just wonder why it takes looking back some times.

The grieving process is one of those ongoing things in my life where I usually have to look back to make sense of my heart.

Even now, I shake my head at the ways the wounds of grief manifest itself in my responses, fears, insecurities, and doubts.

I wonder.

I wonder why doesn’t God reveal the total effects of pain and hurt in our lives all at once? Why am I still just realizing some of the effects of pain – pain that seems so long ago – playing out in my everyday responses?

I find myself just asking, “God why not just show me? Why not just show me the effects of pain all at once when it happens?

It is in these times of asking that I remember a story in Exodus where God has a similar conversation with Moses. God is explaining to Moses that he is going to lead His people from the desert into the promise land. He talks about all of the foreign tribes and lands they will conquer to take over the promise land.

Just when you are getting all psyched up from the list of successes God is going bring for His people, he adds in a little part that deserves a double take. It’s one of those parts that should be italicized and called “fine print.

God tells Moses, “But I will not drive them out in a single year, because the land would become desolate and the wild animals too numerous for you.  Little by little I will drive them out before you, until you have increased enough to take possession of the land.”


All of those great victories He just spent time talking about in the verses before are not going to happen all at once!?

I am learning that God is a God of process. It is because of His grace that we do not get to feel or even see the effects of everything all at once. It would be too much to handle.

We need His grace of the “little by little” in our lives. I may throw tantrums for understanding things through hindsight, but God cares about my abilities to handle things.

Little by little, God is doing something in us.

Little by little we get to the place of being able to take “possession” of something going on in our hearts and lives.

Little by little is where wisdom and understanding comes in.

Little by little is His grace for us.

What is something going on in your life that you wish God would show you more about what’s happening?


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I love traveling. There is so much in it for my heart. I love the map screen that international flights have. I love watching as the red line of my trip gets longer and longer. It is so exciting to see how much distance I have covered.

I think about that, and realize how much I can also get stuck with only looking ahead. I can get stuck wrestling with the road ahead that I forget to look where I have traveled from.

All of our paths have reds lines that reveal the roads we’ve traveled.

There is power in remembering.

Before I took the leap and moved this year, I spent weeks going through old boxes and bins in my attic. I filled bags and bags of old memories and pieces of me.

I both laughed at RE-diculous times in my laugh, and cried at discovering my heart. So many boxes filled with pieces of myself. So many bags filled with glimpses of my gifts, dreams, passions, risks, accomplishments, and foot prints.













There is power in remembering.

We forget to look back and see the value in the footsteps taken. We can forget to see the good things already done, prayers already answered, life already transformed, and mile markers conquered.

There is power in remembering.

I am always humbled when I read God’s words of remembering in the bible. He says in so many place to remember what he has already done for his people.

God talks about remembering that he freed them from captivity and brought his people out of slavery. He provided food and shelter in the desert. God provided victories in battle, and ushered his people into the promise land.

In Micah, God says, “Remember your journey.” I love that. There is such power in remembering.

Remembering provides hope. Remembering provides wisdom for the steps ahead, and courage to take them. Remembering reminds us that God was, and is, in our everything.

Looking back, What would God tell you to remember?

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Everybody carries around the weight of something. There is always one thing that weighs down our hearts. It’s that thing that seems to sit on your chest, and all the roads of your thought life lead back to this place.

It could be something stressful or anxiety producing. It could be something you need to say to somone, or even speaking up for yourself.

Are you carrying the weight of grief? Is there brokenness you are waiting for signs of life to spring out of?

This could also be a dream of some sort that you wish you were living in.

Do you have life questions, or wonderings from God?

Everybody has a one thing.

Where does your weightiness lie right now?



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The question of truth is always on my mind. I often ask myself, “what is the truth in this situation? what is the truth in the words said by another?” Truth is a thing so sought after and hungered for. I crave truth. One of my favorite phrases in scripture is, “I tell you the truth.” Gosh, how powerful are those words.

One thing I have been thinking about is how often I find myself, as well as others, believing so quickly in the negative words that are spoken to them. How often do we consider the source of those words? How often do we give weight to words from a person who does not know us, our process of life, or who we are. Yet, we give their words weight. Why are we so quick to believe in words that speak against who we are?

These thoughts and questions remind me of a conversation that Jesus and Pilate had before Jesus was crucified. Pilate is questioning Jesus and asks him if he is a king. Jesus responds by saying, ” you are right in saying I am a king. In fact it was for this reason I was born, and for this I came into the world, to testify to the truth. Everyone on the side of truth listens to me.” Pilate responds…”what is truth?”

We ask the same question of what is truth? Jesus is the truth. What he thinks about you and me is the voice that matters; is the voice that should hold the most weight.  The people we know and trust to be on that same side of truth, their words should hold weight in our lives.

One way I thought about his words and thoughts for me came from 1 John 1:1. “1That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked at and our hands have touched—this we proclaim concerning the Word of life.” I spent time journaling out those individal pieces of knowing him as truth.

So this is my challenge to you.  I would love to hear about it.

How have you seen him as truth?

How have you heard him as truth?

How has he revealed himself as truth to you through touch?

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